I have friends and family who cannot stay in a silent space for too long or feel they will lose it. However, silence is never too loud for me. Perhaps it has to do with me being an introvert. I enjoy moments of isolation immensely. Granted, that is different from feeling lonely. I have been in that situation before, and it was crushing my mental state.
As I sit here and reflect on the fact that March makes a year the world has experienced a pandemic, I have learned a lot about myself. I enjoy my times of isolation and quiet. My bedroom has become my sanctuary. It’s the place I can let myself go entirely, whether that means dancing and not worrying about how silly I look or wearing the too-small shorts I like love too much to get rid of even though my cellulite is showing. It is a place for me to think and ponder on the experiences around me. My bedroom is where I can decompress from the day’s events.
No matter what personality style someone, as we all need, that place we feel, is safe so we can just be alone with ourselves, even if it’s just for a few minutes. Some people use a commute to and from work as their alone time, or maybe it is time someone spends in the bathroom having a bath or shower. Perhaps it is the time when someone walks their jog or takes a job at the local park. As I write this, I realize there are a few places I seek refuge for silent moments.
What is essential for people to realize is that it is okay to want times of peace. As humans, I believe we need it. No one is equipped to be in motion all the time, and the opportunity to settle your mind should not happen only during sleep. I know from experience sleeping does not mean waking up feeling refreshed. I also know there is a difference between isolation as a choice or thrust upon a person.
Right now, I’m in my bedroom having my quiet time as I write this blog. My TV is off, and there is no music playing. The only sounds I hear are the airplane outside flying by on its way to the airport. This thought of quiet is my story for the day. I like my quiet and times of solitude. For me, it’s a good thing and keeps feelings of anxiety at bay. In a little while, I’ll return to the hustle and bustle of life, and I’ll enjoy it because finally, I have figured out what works best for me and how to make myself happy.